Thursday, August 06, 2009
AND THEN... @ 20:41
Fate has its way. Its path.
I might be fool. Probably I’m a bit stubborn for keeping stand still to my conviction. Possibly I’m a fully jackass. Perhaps…
I just want to attend the lecture.
Am I wrong for fighting any? Am I? Should I give up and wait for another year?
It’s like I’m naked. It’s like I’m barely undressed. It’s like I’m out with Jin-SCREW look alike. Shameful, disgraceful, shy, disrepute…
It’s definitely out of my mind.
It’s not what I want.
I am forced to. Having some complication in my family involved my mother and my fucktarded father who’s too troublesome exactly obstructing my stride. Facing a fact that he fled in my re-registration money *21 Million!! WTF!!* Totally obliterating any of my longing. DAMMIT.
Occasionally, beneath her rigid and stiff, I think my mother’s too.. limp, supple; tender..
Until at the end, insensibly, I satisfy my fury to her. Off my disappointment, off my helplessness.
Though I know it’s useless.
University life was something that I wanted, dreamed, fought, and cried for. Three days remain I cried, three days remain I moaned..
It’ll too pathetic if I easily surrender. Yet.. It’ll nastily stupid if I’m holding out and regain my obstinacy and…
Gosh, why is it so hard? Dismissing an opportunity from UNPAD and ITT and I have to reach another, in another year…
I can’t stand it alone…
Literally, I can’t.
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Thursday, August 06, 2009
AND THEN... @ 20:41
Fate has its way. Its path.
I might be fool. Probably I’m a bit stubborn for keeping stand still to my conviction. Possibly I’m a fully jackass. Perhaps…
I just want to attend the lecture.
Am I wrong for fighting any? Am I? Should I give up and wait for another year?
It’s like I’m naked. It’s like I’m barely undressed. It’s like I’m out with Jin-SCREW look alike. Shameful, disgraceful, shy, disrepute…
It’s definitely out of my mind.
It’s not what I want.
I am forced to. Having some complication in my family involved my mother and my fucktarded father who’s too troublesome exactly obstructing my stride. Facing a fact that he fled in my re-registration money *21 Million!! WTF!!* Totally obliterating any of my longing. DAMMIT.
Occasionally, beneath her rigid and stiff, I think my mother’s too.. limp, supple; tender..
Until at the end, insensibly, I satisfy my fury to her. Off my disappointment, off my helplessness.
Though I know it’s useless.
University life was something that I wanted, dreamed, fought, and cried for. Three days remain I cried, three days remain I moaned..
It’ll too pathetic if I easily surrender. Yet.. It’ll nastily stupid if I’m holding out and regain my obstinacy and…
Gosh, why is it so hard? Dismissing an opportunity from UNPAD and ITT and I have to reach another, in another year…
I can’t stand it alone…
Literally, I can’t.
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you think you know me yeah?
April 5th, 1992. ISTP. Engineering student, batch 2009.
Likes sweets, cats, good readings, interesting people, prominent basslines, Christopher Nolan, Martin Scorsese and Stanley Kubrick's movies. DC-type individual. Constantly rants, sulks and rambles about random things. A fan of Urasawa Naoki. Easily gets bored. A weirdo. Longs to reside in either Canada or Australia. Has an indescribable fondness towards... Byung-hee, Mon Jae Shin, do they hit the hint I'm referring to? I mean,
similarities between those two?
And music. I don't even know where to start. I don't want to be one of those bellends who's all like, "MAN MUSIC IS WHAT I LIVE FOR I'M GONNA DIE WITHOUT IT", but I come close. Suffice to say that music plays a large part in my life. My last.fm library pretty much caters my current listening habit (and, if any, rotation) - I'm basically a shameless sucker for instrumental, post/prog-rock, folk, ambient, experimental and avant-garde; anything that intrigues my musical deity.
Lastly, to name a trait, paradoxical describes me best.
